Survivor Stories

"I've never sat down and thought about my cancer story. It's been a year and a half of adrenaline raising treatments, and meds and medications and surgeries and chemo and radiation etc.. But now as I sit here NED I finally have time to process what has happened.

The truth is the hardest part of this journey has not been me, Rather it's been about the people I love. 15 years ago I lost my mother to cancer in the same hospital I receive treatment for. Throughout this process I Questioned every piece of equipment I used. Did she use this same scan, Or was this the floor she died on, etc.. I felt like a little girl who misses her mama. But thankfully her journey has helped prepare me for mine. Then I think the hardest component of my cancer journey has been with my children.

I now have some perspective as a mother with cancer and as a child.  Who has lost a parent to cancer. There are so many things those kids have gone through to support me. And while I am amazed by their strength, they're dedication and their love I hate their pain. None of this is right. They should be focused on the results of their math test the results of my medical testing. They sould be concerned if they will like what I make for Dinner not the other way around.

Watching my kids hurt husband the most Devastating part of fighting cancer. Quite frankly it pisses me off. With that Said I am grateful for every test.Every procedure every medication every nurse every doctor. I am so thankful for my friends and my family and and i'm thankful to those who have walked the journey before me. Perhaps the most important thing I have learned is to allow myself to love and be loved by others. "